What was I intending to paint? Intentions, what happens to them. I scribbled…folded…all ready for the trash. But why not practice Decalcomania. I added paint and let the left side blend with the right side. I still wanted to throw it away. I kept working and all of a sudden a butterfly appeard giving me wings to fly.
a little note to self
Keep going, stop just stop the maddness of wanting to throw out your work. Not everything you make will be for the shop. Create and when you feel stuck shut up and keep going. Yes intentions are good but it’s the surprises that happen in the midst of intentions that …that’s what great art is made of. I know, I have seen my work. For every idea that you think didn’t work there’s an idea, a technique that does. Look closer. The flowers that bloom don’t have perfect petals so don’t expect yours to be either. Wait that’s one for the book. I’m going to paint that too.
Be proud of your work. I sure am!
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I’ve painted so many ideas. I’ve written so many words. You Are Loved has been a way for me to step away form this bubble of life is all peaches and cream. Life is all rainbows and sunshine. The fact is there are dark times and terrible people. You can let it get to you, or you can focus on the good and take care of you.
At first I kept getting up. I had to do this. I had to do that.
The hardest part of writing is allowing yourself to sit and write. The weirdest thing happened. I had the end all figured out first. I pieced together the middle and the beginning. Two hours later I have a good idea!
Scanned and cleaned up the first half of the book. I have some new work and updated a bookcover.
To sit in this chair, looking in the mirror. You’ve got to know…know the song about make-up and a little prayer. You have all the beauty to conquer today. The lipstick and blush are simply frosting on the cake.
A book filled with thoughts like these are so good for You Are Loved. All illustrations are done. Words are yet to be written. I’ve got details. I have words but that’ll change.
All the projects good or terrible, have been part of the story. Many times I throw out an idea when it doesn’t work out on paper. There’s a lesson in every drawing. Let yourself go. Be Free. Learn what you can and MOVE ON. One of two situations happens. You keep iterating but you toss it with the strength of knowing you have a better idea. Or it works out. Sure I could reflect on the wasted paint and paper. I can’t do both.
When an idea fails, it’s not the idea that fails. We fail. We fail to see .
Now these illustrations go together! I like the blue. I always go back and forth with the “right tools.” The tools could be any thing I choose. These illustrations are fun. I can see me, someone, turning the pages. Each page revealing a messagae of self love…makes me smile.
There was a tree trunk that I was excited about. The colors were all wrong. Deleted it. The original is trash. Every book has a story. This book has been a roller coaster. Some days it’s just me and my paint. The idea works. Other days I feel like I have to finish. I start making mistakes. I do have lots of time. I’m excited to finish up. I really want to move into creative exploration and the zine.
Wait, another tree needs a top coat of acrylic in the actual color intended.
Why this picture came out ok , it happens. I like the idea, an scanning it will be beautiful. Working on this reminded me of treasure maps and scrolls. Spell Books. Manuscripts, the ones printed with blocks. Classic books. There’s something about generation after generation holding the book long after it’s been written. I like the the treasure map and scroll paper.
Wrote a zine once. I should upgrade this one with more attidude.
I was right. I don’t need a zine class or an artist to inspire me. I am the artist. Glue the pages to create an accordion fold. Yes! Collage? Paint? Pens? Watercolor? All the above. I want to print this zine. During a podcast, a listener commented on finishing a zine.
My font. Yes my awesome font is ready. Took a lot longer than expected. Now all I need is to work on the words and digitize all the illustrations. That’s a lot. My deadline is July 1st. I want to start creative exploration and the flower book.
Loves are rare? I like stamping circles and pink. Honestly there is such a thing as luck. If you are a likable person, people like what you do! Somehow the right people find you. Sometimes luck in the nick of time preserves your sanity.
SO I painted a clover. I added more dots. Pink ones.
There are artists who can paint beautiful realistic clovers. That’ll never be me. I finished the last of my painting for You Are Loved. The writing is good. I need to put everything together and create the font.